Im having such a major struggle right now internally. It hurts more so much but at the same time I feel numb to it. I try not to be a negative person because ive been to the darkside and survived such crazy things in life but I have such a negative outlook at this point. Ive spent a majority of my life taking a said 'family members' negativity towards me. The kind of negativity where digs are thrown constantly and its assumed I do nothing. I finally after years defended myself the other day and then was attacked by not just one but two 'family members' where it was again said I do nothing. My birthday is coming up and it was asked if I wanted to invite them or not and I sit here struggling for the words somewhat and struggling to have a positive mind. Do I invite the person or persons who bring negativity into my life every single time they are around to dinner to celebrate or do I do what is best for me and not. Im struggling with whats right and what is best for me personally. :/
9 years ago
Just because they're family doesn't mean they'll treat you right. You are not going to get along with everyone in your family.
If other people are noticing enough to ask you if you want to invite them, the answer should be no.
"Family" doesn't mean everything if they're not going to respect you. Life is too short to surround yourself with negativity and things that bring you down.
9 years ago
Kind of what I've been thinking about it all. I guess I just care too much in some ways to give up :/
9 years ago
I know the feeling. I have a bad reputation for bending over backwards for people who don't deserve it, but it gets to the point where you have to take care of yourself and your well being first. No one should make you feel less then you're worth.
9 years ago
So true. I think I just need time away from the situation to really let it pass me by and move on from it.